Warning Strong Language
So, we were riding along on a beautiful but snowy winter day and December and by now Navarro knows that sunglasses are my favorite fashion accessory. He even bought me the most amazing pair of D&G sunglasses for my birthday. I told him when we met that my sunglass obsession began when I was in high school. He also has several nice pairs of Ray-Ban’s that are just as dark and just as costly.
On this particular day I wore my very dark pair of Ray-Ban’s because snow and sunlight are a migraine triggers for me, so I wore the darkest pair to prevent the worst pain in my life from occurring. As we were riding, I noticed his mood change from funny and happy to extremely quiet. I also noticed him glancing over at me with a puzzling look of intense agitation, then he began to laugh, so I said,” What’s funny?” by now I’m feeling very uneasy because of the sudden change in his demeanor.
He said, “you want to know what I think?” “I think you and women like you think we’re stupid. You just wore those sunglasses so you can watch the men outside of the university.”
I’m not believing this. “We pass the university every day, I wear sunglasses every day so what’s so different about today?” “Well, you obviously saw some pretty boy that caught your eye, and you didn’t want me to see you looking at him.” I said, “that’s ridiculous” to which he replied, “don’t call me ridiculous bitch, you think I’m supposed to sit by while you watch another man’s dick right in front of me?”
The look of anger on his face was terrifying but I’m not easily threatened so I replied, “first I’m nobody’s bitch and second, I wore these glasses to keep the sun that’s even more intense when the snow is out from my eyes to protect a migraine which is about to happen anyway because you’re crazy.” Besides, sunglasses are a multi-billion dollar industry, so you actually think that women buy them to look at men? So why do men buy them? What about Elton John? He turns the car around takes me back to my car and tells me to get the fuck out!
Hello! Is this or is this not a wakeup call? Two days go by with a flood of remorse filled apologetic phone calls expressing his behavior was the result of his fear of losing me and he is so insecure because he has never allowed himself to love someone as much as he finds himself in love with me.
Why didn’t I move to Alaska, well because I love my job, I love my children and my children are dependent solely on me because their father left and is not providing one penny to help me. I am finally earning enough to make my mortgage payments, pay my utilities and pay for my children needs and all I have to do is pray that I can keep my sanity while dealing with someone who is a perfect candidate for residency at an insane asylum.
